and the craziness continues...

i have been busy trying to survive. the world of debt and work have been my number one priority. i still think but i have found myself caught up in all the externalities of life. i'm tired of it. keeping busy as not to think or feel. i rather dislike that feeling. i don't really like work. i know, i know, who does, right? but from what i have seen people don't really work any more or rather people stopped creating. the jobs out there right now are mostly mindless. It is more or less just repeating some sort of process while looking busy so that you don't get fired. People no longer connect with what they do. That is scary since work is most of their lives. what happened to us? when did we become so complaint? i want my work or rather my life to mean something not just to be a disposable human/ employee. i need to stop getting wrapped up in the veil of maya that this mundane reality keeps wrapping around me. i choose to think, to feel and to create not to entertain myself to mediocrity.